Currently Listening to: "Paperback Suicide"
Evangelicals
There hasn't been a whole lot going on with me other than school. I have a very busy semester ahead of me. I will be taking roughly 17 units and working 30 plus hours a week. My classes consist of: Sign Language 2 (which is a very, very early class.. 7:30) Communications, English (my class required English class) Drumming, and Math..
This past weekend was pretty fun. I went to a party and I got to see my roommate drunk off his ass. Something I have yet to see. He hasn't drank in a month; but Saturday night he went out with style. We tricked a friend of mine that it was his first time ever drinking. With that said, drank a fair amount of Jack Daniels. Everyone seemed to be amazed, calling him a "Natural Drinker."
After that party got shut down by the police, we went to another house for some more drunken fun. On our way to the next house, we had to make a quick stop to pick up some booze. By this time my roommate was drunk. The store was closed but you could still pick up items from the window. The lady asked what we wanted, and we told he a 12 pack of Pabst. In confusion she came back with a 40 ounce of King Cobra.. A real shitty beer. Al (my roommate) didn't hesitate and immediately asked for 7.... 7..... After that we headed to the party, were he got even more shitty. I won't say what happened with the rest of the night. I will say this is now in our possession.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
Dreams
Currently Listening to: Broken Social Scene
"Almost Crimes"
Lately I have been having really strange, vivid and often terrifying dreams. I don't usually believe in "signs" or any of that nonsense, but they all seem to have very similar themes. I woke up from a very short nap today in tears because of something that just seemed so real.
I was at my parents house about to leave for work and my step dad was screaming at my mother for no apparent reason. He started to scream at me, telling me I'm a fuck up and will never amount to anything. I told him "Fuck You" and he started throwing dishes in rage. He mentioned something about hurting my mother. I told him that if he ever laid a finger on my mother, it would be the end of him. he came running up onto me trying to attack me. It was very easy for me to hold him back, but I kept hearing my mom screaming in the background at us to stop. The dream then went to holding my mom crying telling her that she deserves so much better.
I quickly woke up to this in tears. I never, ever want to see my mom crying like she did in my dream ever. She never had an easy life. There are so many things that I can write about that have changed her life for the worse, but I choose not to, for it would only upset me and put me in a horrible mood.
I wish everything was better for you mom. I really do.
As for my step dad. He does have an anger problem, but has never touched my mother or myself. I know deep down he is a good person, but its those kinds of dreams that make me forget...
I feel weird about posting this, but I feel it is somewhat necessary. I have been in a weird mood lately and I think posting this will help me get over it..
"Almost Crimes"
Lately I have been having really strange, vivid and often terrifying dreams. I don't usually believe in "signs" or any of that nonsense, but they all seem to have very similar themes. I woke up from a very short nap today in tears because of something that just seemed so real.
I was at my parents house about to leave for work and my step dad was screaming at my mother for no apparent reason. He started to scream at me, telling me I'm a fuck up and will never amount to anything. I told him "Fuck You" and he started throwing dishes in rage. He mentioned something about hurting my mother. I told him that if he ever laid a finger on my mother, it would be the end of him. he came running up onto me trying to attack me. It was very easy for me to hold him back, but I kept hearing my mom screaming in the background at us to stop. The dream then went to holding my mom crying telling her that she deserves so much better.
I quickly woke up to this in tears. I never, ever want to see my mom crying like she did in my dream ever. She never had an easy life. There are so many things that I can write about that have changed her life for the worse, but I choose not to, for it would only upset me and put me in a horrible mood.
I wish everything was better for you mom. I really do.
As for my step dad. He does have an anger problem, but has never touched my mother or myself. I know deep down he is a good person, but its those kinds of dreams that make me forget...
I feel weird about posting this, but I feel it is somewhat necessary. I have been in a weird mood lately and I think posting this will help me get over it..
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Currently Listening to: France Gall
"poupee de cire, poupee de son"
The past few days I have been going to work 4 hours earlier just so I can get some experience behind the camera. I'm not getting paid for those hours, but in the end I think it will be worth it. On Friday I was actually given my first assignment. My job was to go out and shoot first weather for our newscast.
Soon I was off. I went with Jordan our reporter Jamie down to city hall. While they went off to interview some guy about some rail-yard business, I went across the street to shoot weather at a park. Everything went well until I was leaving.... As I was having trouble with a tripod, this bum ran up to me and started telling me that I was filming him and asking who I was all aggressive like. I don't have a badge like all the other photogs since I'm only a production assistant, so I don't really look legit (although I have a $20,000) camera around my neck. Since I'm all new to the whole business of things I showed him a different work I.D. he quickly snatched that from my hand and ran off with it.
Fuck.
I didn't really know what to do, So I headed back city hall to meet up with Jordan and Jamie. Later on we went and ate over at Paesano's and then to grab a SOT and VO of a local bar that got broken into. Afterwards we went to a gas station so I can get some VO of a gas prices and whatnot. Immediately as I got out of the car, this bum came straight towards me and started talking his nonsense to me. I look back to the jeep and all I see is Jamie and Jordan laughing at me. What the hell is with with bums and me? I now have the nickname "Bum Whisperer"
....
Thanks Jordan...
Today I went out skating with a bunch of friends and took some photos (film). Hopefully I can go to a darkroom soon and develop them.
"poupee de cire, poupee de son"
The past few days I have been going to work 4 hours earlier just so I can get some experience behind the camera. I'm not getting paid for those hours, but in the end I think it will be worth it. On Friday I was actually given my first assignment. My job was to go out and shoot first weather for our newscast.
Soon I was off. I went with Jordan our reporter Jamie down to city hall. While they went off to interview some guy about some rail-yard business, I went across the street to shoot weather at a park. Everything went well until I was leaving.... As I was having trouble with a tripod, this bum ran up to me and started telling me that I was filming him and asking who I was all aggressive like. I don't have a badge like all the other photogs since I'm only a production assistant, so I don't really look legit (although I have a $20,000) camera around my neck. Since I'm all new to the whole business of things I showed him a different work I.D. he quickly snatched that from my hand and ran off with it.
Fuck.
I didn't really know what to do, So I headed back city hall to meet up with Jordan and Jamie. Later on we went and ate over at Paesano's and then to grab a SOT and VO of a local bar that got broken into. Afterwards we went to a gas station so I can get some VO of a gas prices and whatnot. Immediately as I got out of the car, this bum came straight towards me and started talking his nonsense to me. I look back to the jeep and all I see is Jamie and Jordan laughing at me. What the hell is with with bums and me? I now have the nickname "Bum Whisperer"
....
Thanks Jordan...
Today I went out skating with a bunch of friends and took some photos (film). Hopefully I can go to a darkroom soon and develop them.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Tubular Tuesday
Currently Listening to: Korn
"All in the Family"
Lately I have been listening to a bunch of music that I used to in middle/high school. Bands that I would be ashamed to admit that I used to listen... But fuck those people.. This brings be back to....The good ol'e times??? I guess you can say that... I have been listening to Blink 182, Korn, Eminem and a few other "great" 90's bands/artists. Sometimes people just need a retreat, vacation or even a blast from the past.
Today consisted of figuring out what is wrong with my car and finding out that I don't have the funds to pay for the tune-up it so desperately needs. I should be able to take care of it next week when I get paid. Speaking of getting paid, I think I should ask for a raise. It's something that I think is due.
Nothing really interesting took place today. Before I went to work I went to my parents to eat like I usually do. Laid in bed, lounged on the bed a watched "Hackers". "Hackers" is a great nerd/geek movie by people who think they know how to relate to nerd/geeks all over the world. Of course you have Angelina Jolie as the sexy hacker that goes by the name Acid Burn. And some other guy who reminds a lot of that Dawson's creek guy. He plays Crash Override, the hero. I'm not going to get into the movie much, I just want to say a few things this movie made me.
1. The movie consisted of many underage characters lighting up a "stog" (as my friend Phil would like to call them) and puff away. I'm not big on the whole smoking thing; although I will admit that I have a cigarette every now and then (more so when I have been drinking). But watching a 106 minute long movie of kids smoking is not my thing.
2. Horny.. All I need to say is Angelina Jolie.. You get the picture.
3. Really glad I didn't dress they way the characters did in the movie.
4. Wonder what the hell is the deal with Matthew Lillard. He always plays some weird guy in movies (Except Scream, where he was the weird killer). In this movie he was the stupid genius. The kid with no common sense but knows everything you need to know to hack into NASA. In a movie starring Freddy Prince JR, I forgot the title of; he plays some weird guy who was on the Real World... Then you have Scooby Doo. Nothing more needs to be said.
5. Horny... Again, Angelina Jolie.
Soon after the movie I was off to work.
Nothing really exciting today. After about 3 hours of editing, I decided to walk around the complex and take a few photos.
This is the microwave room. I wish there was a girl sitting and watching t.v. in this picture. It sure would make it creepy.
I made this say "poop" once...
And this photo is just weird.
After work I met up with my friend Christina so help her with somethings. We haven't seen each other since the time she threw up in my car after drinking a bottle of Captain Morgan with her friend. Yeah, I'm calling you out on puking in my car... But you know I love you.. That incident was little before Christmas, so she was never able to give me the Christmas present she got me. Until now....
A Flask.... This will come in handy... Oh yes!!!! Thank you Christina.
Soon after I went and got myself some food and now here I am.
Tomorrow I will be going out with one of the photographers from the stations. Hopefully Chris or Jordan... Those guys are the one's who are I tend to have the most fun with. But they both kind of remind me of these guys.
"All in the Family"
Lately I have been listening to a bunch of music that I used to in middle/high school. Bands that I would be ashamed to admit that I used to listen... But fuck those people.. This brings be back to....The good ol'e times??? I guess you can say that... I have been listening to Blink 182, Korn, Eminem and a few other "great" 90's bands/artists. Sometimes people just need a retreat, vacation or even a blast from the past.
Today consisted of figuring out what is wrong with my car and finding out that I don't have the funds to pay for the tune-up it so desperately needs. I should be able to take care of it next week when I get paid. Speaking of getting paid, I think I should ask for a raise. It's something that I think is due.
Nothing really interesting took place today. Before I went to work I went to my parents to eat like I usually do. Laid in bed, lounged on the bed a watched "Hackers". "Hackers" is a great nerd/geek movie by people who think they know how to relate to nerd/geeks all over the world. Of course you have Angelina Jolie as the sexy hacker that goes by the name Acid Burn. And some other guy who reminds a lot of that Dawson's creek guy. He plays Crash Override, the hero. I'm not going to get into the movie much, I just want to say a few things this movie made me.
1. The movie consisted of many underage characters lighting up a "stog" (as my friend Phil would like to call them) and puff away. I'm not big on the whole smoking thing; although I will admit that I have a cigarette every now and then (more so when I have been drinking). But watching a 106 minute long movie of kids smoking is not my thing.
2. Horny.. All I need to say is Angelina Jolie.. You get the picture.
3. Really glad I didn't dress they way the characters did in the movie.
4. Wonder what the hell is the deal with Matthew Lillard. He always plays some weird guy in movies (Except Scream, where he was the weird killer). In this movie he was the stupid genius. The kid with no common sense but knows everything you need to know to hack into NASA. In a movie starring Freddy Prince JR, I forgot the title of; he plays some weird guy who was on the Real World... Then you have Scooby Doo. Nothing more needs to be said.
5. Horny... Again, Angelina Jolie.
Soon after the movie I was off to work.
Nothing really exciting today. After about 3 hours of editing, I decided to walk around the complex and take a few photos.
This is the microwave room. I wish there was a girl sitting and watching t.v. in this picture. It sure would make it creepy.
I made this say "poop" once...
And this photo is just weird.After work I met up with my friend Christina so help her with somethings. We haven't seen each other since the time she threw up in my car after drinking a bottle of Captain Morgan with her friend. Yeah, I'm calling you out on puking in my car... But you know I love you.. That incident was little before Christmas, so she was never able to give me the Christmas present she got me. Until now....
A Flask.... This will come in handy... Oh yes!!!! Thank you Christina.
Soon after I went and got myself some food and now here I am.
Tomorrow I will be going out with one of the photographers from the stations. Hopefully Chris or Jordan... Those guys are the one's who are I tend to have the most fun with. But they both kind of remind me of these guys.
Monday, January 7, 2008
School Situation
Currently Listening to: C.S.S
"Music is My Hot Hot Sex"
I'm not very happy with what happen today at school. A few weeks ago I filled for the B.O.G. fee wavier to pay for all of my classes. After the long and confusing form application I finally completed it with.....I was approved... Sweet. All I have to do is bring a small form to school and I'm set.
I'm a full time college student. Living on my own (I do have roommates) and a close to full time employee. For anyone who has or is in the same situation I am now.. You its barely making it each month with bills and everything. So being approved for this wavier was something I was happy about.
Today was the first day that school was open due to the holiday's and what have you, so I decided to take care of everything. I get to school around 12:30.. It's packed. The line for the financial aid is horrendous. I get in line.. And I wait...and wait...and wait some more. About a half an hour goes by and I am finally able to go up to the window and speak with the financial aid lady. After a few minutes after reviewing my paper work.
I was denied.
What the fuck? I don't understand. I am denied? That doesn't make any sense. I don't make much money, yet a person who makes a lot more than I do, lives with their parents and drives a 2010 Hummer can get their classes waived? This shit is fucked. I left pretty pissed. I went back to my parents house to see what I can do about everything. After a talk with my mom and a few phone calls later, my uncle Larry offered the money. I am so thankful for that. I want to be done with City College so bad and more on with my life.
I really hate borrowing money. Really, I do. I just feel really... guilty.
By the time I got the check from my uncle in Elk Grove, it was time for work.
It was a pretty slow news day today. Nothing really exciting. After editing a bunch of stories, one of the photog's needed to get onto my edit bay to do a few minor adjustments to a package he edited earlier. While he did that, I watched the BCS College game. I'm not big on football. I never have. But recently I have been getting more and more into it. Not like those douchebag bro-bro's that go to sports bars and drink nothing but Jager. I think it is quality entertainment. After watching LSU dominate Ohio State, I got back to work... It was fairly boring today at work. Mike, the director said I can go home early at 10:30 (middle of broadcast) if there wasn't anything going on. And..well here I am now... Back at my house. This is another pointless blog, but like I said. I just want to do this so I can become a better writer.
Fuck.
"Music is My Hot Hot Sex"
I'm not very happy with what happen today at school. A few weeks ago I filled for the B.O.G. fee wavier to pay for all of my classes. After the long and confusing form application I finally completed it with.....I was approved... Sweet. All I have to do is bring a small form to school and I'm set.
I'm a full time college student. Living on my own (I do have roommates) and a close to full time employee. For anyone who has or is in the same situation I am now.. You its barely making it each month with bills and everything. So being approved for this wavier was something I was happy about.
Today was the first day that school was open due to the holiday's and what have you, so I decided to take care of everything. I get to school around 12:30.. It's packed. The line for the financial aid is horrendous. I get in line.. And I wait...and wait...and wait some more. About a half an hour goes by and I am finally able to go up to the window and speak with the financial aid lady. After a few minutes after reviewing my paper work.
I was denied.
What the fuck? I don't understand. I am denied? That doesn't make any sense. I don't make much money, yet a person who makes a lot more than I do, lives with their parents and drives a 2010 Hummer can get their classes waived? This shit is fucked. I left pretty pissed. I went back to my parents house to see what I can do about everything. After a talk with my mom and a few phone calls later, my uncle Larry offered the money. I am so thankful for that. I want to be done with City College so bad and more on with my life.
I really hate borrowing money. Really, I do. I just feel really... guilty.
By the time I got the check from my uncle in Elk Grove, it was time for work.
It was a pretty slow news day today. Nothing really exciting. After editing a bunch of stories, one of the photog's needed to get onto my edit bay to do a few minor adjustments to a package he edited earlier. While he did that, I watched the BCS College game. I'm not big on football. I never have. But recently I have been getting more and more into it. Not like those douchebag bro-bro's that go to sports bars and drink nothing but Jager. I think it is quality entertainment. After watching LSU dominate Ohio State, I got back to work... It was fairly boring today at work. Mike, the director said I can go home early at 10:30 (middle of broadcast) if there wasn't anything going on. And..well here I am now... Back at my house. This is another pointless blog, but like I said. I just want to do this so I can become a better writer.
Fuck.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Last Night
Currently Listening to: "Portishead"
So after numerous phone calls and text messages asking if I was going to Old Ironsides, I decided to go. Which I am thankful that I did. When I got there I met up with my friend Lauren, Kendra, Max and Tina. Even though there was a small line to get in, it took about 10 minutes of waiting in the cold weather. When I got in I immediately noticed it was packed.
It took a while for me to get something to drink; but at Old Ironsides it usually always is. I got a beer for my friend Max and myself. It turns out that it was his birthday. Cheers to you Max.. It took me a while to get comfortable enough (drunk enough) to start dancing. I don't really go to Old Ironsides that much. Its kinda of small. The same people go there that go to Townhouse on Fridays. I guess I'm just more comfortable at Townhouse. After a while I got a text from a friend asking me to meet up with her at the bar, so I did. She was telling me that she lost her money but got a free shot of whiskey but can't stand whiskey. So I took that off her hands and got her a beer. We talked for a minute and then headed to the dance floor.
I really need to learn how to dance.
To me the music they play is so randomly hilarious. It goes from Klaxons to LCD Soundsystem then to Snoop Dogs Sensual Seduction. After a while we danced, than Prodigy's "Smack My Bitch Up" came on. My friend was pretending to "Smack Her Bitch Up'' on me and accidentally punched me in the face.... Son of a bitch... After that I saw a few more familiar faces dancing around. When it was all over I met up with my friend Mark outside. After that we went to Del-Taco for a late night drunk food session.
I must say, the people who work at this particular Del-Taco need some serious.... I don't know how to put this. Basically they are all fucked up looking. I'm not saying I'm the most attractive person in the world, but seriously, they are fucked. Take the cashier for instance. Have you seen "Grandma's Boy"? You know that guy who talks like a robot and is super weird? Imagine that guy, but his faced soaked in grease, acne and British teeth.
Moving on.
When we got to Del-Taco, I saw my neighbor sitting with her friends at a table. She noticed me and came up and talked to me for a little while. She told me to call her once I get home so we can hang out. We get our food and a bunch of other people I know all show up. Danielle, Ashley and her boyfriend Mike, Nick and his girlfriend that is super cute, Mike Pennings and Aric Hondel. Mike and Aric were both pretty drunk. Mark was telling me that you don't want to fight Mike ever because he will just wrestle you and make you exhausted and then knock you out. I'll keep that in mind. After we eat, we head home.
Mark has been driving my car because I was unable to do that myself. I wasn't drunk, but I knew that if I drove home and got pulled over, I would have been fucked. Mark drives to Aric's house and I head home.
I text my neighbor to come over and she does. There is a problem with this though. A few months ago there was an incident with me, her, drinking and a hospital. I don't really know how to transition into talking about that from where I am at this point in this post, nor do I really want to. Maybe someday I will explain what happened.
I will leave with this. By the time she left, I was pissed. Sometimes people just don't care about people and take what they can from them.
"Strangers"
So after numerous phone calls and text messages asking if I was going to Old Ironsides, I decided to go. Which I am thankful that I did. When I got there I met up with my friend Lauren, Kendra, Max and Tina. Even though there was a small line to get in, it took about 10 minutes of waiting in the cold weather. When I got in I immediately noticed it was packed.
It took a while for me to get something to drink; but at Old Ironsides it usually always is. I got a beer for my friend Max and myself. It turns out that it was his birthday. Cheers to you Max.. It took me a while to get comfortable enough (drunk enough) to start dancing. I don't really go to Old Ironsides that much. Its kinda of small. The same people go there that go to Townhouse on Fridays. I guess I'm just more comfortable at Townhouse. After a while I got a text from a friend asking me to meet up with her at the bar, so I did. She was telling me that she lost her money but got a free shot of whiskey but can't stand whiskey. So I took that off her hands and got her a beer. We talked for a minute and then headed to the dance floor.
I really need to learn how to dance.
To me the music they play is so randomly hilarious. It goes from Klaxons to LCD Soundsystem then to Snoop Dogs Sensual Seduction. After a while we danced, than Prodigy's "Smack My Bitch Up" came on. My friend was pretending to "Smack Her Bitch Up'' on me and accidentally punched me in the face.... Son of a bitch... After that I saw a few more familiar faces dancing around. When it was all over I met up with my friend Mark outside. After that we went to Del-Taco for a late night drunk food session.
I must say, the people who work at this particular Del-Taco need some serious.... I don't know how to put this. Basically they are all fucked up looking. I'm not saying I'm the most attractive person in the world, but seriously, they are fucked. Take the cashier for instance. Have you seen "Grandma's Boy"? You know that guy who talks like a robot and is super weird? Imagine that guy, but his faced soaked in grease, acne and British teeth.
Moving on.
When we got to Del-Taco, I saw my neighbor sitting with her friends at a table. She noticed me and came up and talked to me for a little while. She told me to call her once I get home so we can hang out. We get our food and a bunch of other people I know all show up. Danielle, Ashley and her boyfriend Mike, Nick and his girlfriend that is super cute, Mike Pennings and Aric Hondel. Mike and Aric were both pretty drunk. Mark was telling me that you don't want to fight Mike ever because he will just wrestle you and make you exhausted and then knock you out. I'll keep that in mind. After we eat, we head home.
Mark has been driving my car because I was unable to do that myself. I wasn't drunk, but I knew that if I drove home and got pulled over, I would have been fucked. Mark drives to Aric's house and I head home.
I text my neighbor to come over and she does. There is a problem with this though. A few months ago there was an incident with me, her, drinking and a hospital. I don't really know how to transition into talking about that from where I am at this point in this post, nor do I really want to. Maybe someday I will explain what happened.
I will leave with this. By the time she left, I was pissed. Sometimes people just don't care about people and take what they can from them.
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